Magnificent & Amazing

This makes me tremble and stand in awe of my creator. I have no doubts that there is a God and he is the creator of the universe

"Joseph Campbell wrote of "a perception of a cosmic order, mathmatically definable." As they contemplated the order of the Earth, solar system, and the stellar universe, scientist and scholars have concluded that the Master Planner left nothing to chance.
The slant of the earth, for example, tilted at an angle of twenty-three degrees, produces our seasons. Scientist tell us that if the Earth had not been tilted exactly as it is, vapors from the oceans would move both north and south, piling vast continents of ice.
If the moon were only 50,000 miles away from earth instead of 250,000, the tides might be so enormous that all continents would be submerged in water-even the mountains would be eroded.
If the crust of the earth had been only ten feet thicker, there would be no oxygen, and without it all animal life would die.
Had the oceans been a few feet deeper, carbon dioxide and oxygen would have been absorbed and no vegetable life would exist.
The Earth's weight has been estimated at six sextillion tons(that a six with 21 zeros). Yet it is perfectly balanced and turns easily on its axis. It rotates daily at the rate of more than a thousand miles per hour or 25,000 miles each day. This adds up to nine million miles a year.Considering the tremenedous weight of six sextillion tons rolling at the fantastic speed around an invisible axis, held in place by unseen bands of gravitation.
The earth revolves in its orbit around the sun, making the long elliptical circle about a six hundred million miles each year which means we are traveling through space at nineteen miles per second or about 68,000 miles per hour.
Consider the sun. Every square yard of the sun's surface is emitting a constand energy level of 130,000 horsepower in flames that are being produced by an energy source much more powerful than coal.
The nine major planets in our solar system range in distance from the sun from 36 million to about 3,664 million miles, yet each moves around the sun in exact precision.
Still, the sun is only one minor star among the 100 billion burning orbs that comprise our Milky Way galaxy. If you were to hold out a dime at arm's length while gazing at the night sky, that coin would block out 15 million stars from your view, if your eyes could see with that power."

Lost

I can't believe it. The summer is coming to a close and I head back to school in about two weeks. I am excited for what is in store but at the same time, I am afraid that i will settle back into the same routine and will forget about all that i have learned this summer and that I will begin to be complacent in my faith. I love IWU but sometimes it feels like a bubble. I have a new job offer and i am going down early for the interview. I hope I get the job. I also have the opportunity to help out with freshman orientation.
I have been taking some time to just evaluate my life and where i am at. I have been doing some soul searching. I have also been looking at how i relate to others. I have to be honest with myself. I am lost. I have been lying to myself and to God. I don't know the person that I see when I look in the mirror. How have i let myself become this person. I look at myself and hate what I see. I have let my relationship with my savior become routine and I have lost my first love. I have learned that I am weak-willed. i am consumed with my fears. It makes me unstable and needy. I am so self-absorbed and care more about what people think of me than I want to admit. I am not really sure that God loves me just the way I am, my starving soul tries to get filling from others, and when they don't give enough, I retreat into self pity and then depression. I go to bible studies but my life really never changes because there is nothing inside for the truth to latch on to.
Here is my prayer and where I want to be. "The one thing I desire is just to know you more. To live a life that moves and breathes and loves to bring you joy, so fill me with a fire that burns away my doubts and all my fears into a place where you are all I hear. Its the one things I desire to do what you require is the one thing I desire. To love when I'd rather turn away. To give when I am more resigned to take, to reach out a hand to someone who feels alone. The way you reached for me when there seemed to be no hope. I'll live my life serving Christ, offering a sacrifice of praise."