Relationships

"And it doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends... you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have misunderstood and how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy. And sometimes you can even convince yourself that he'll see the light and show up at your door. And after all that, however long all that may be, you'll go somewhere new. and you'll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again. And little peices of your soul will finally come back. And all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you wasted, that will eventually begin to fade."
-The Holiday-

I just wish this wasn't so true with my life.

Beauty from Pain

My whole world is the pain inside me
The best i can do is just get through the day
When like before is only a memory
I'll wonder why God lets me walk through this place
And though I can't understand why this happened
I know that I will when I look back someday
and see how you've brought beauty from ashes
and made me as gold purified through these flames

After all this has passed, I still will remain
After i've cried my last, there'll be beauty from pain
Though it won't be today, someday I'll hope again
and there'll be beauty from pain
You will bring beauty from my pain.

Beauty from Pain by Superchicks.