Trust

So to be quite honest I am having a hard time being content being single right now. As I have stated in previous posts that i see couples all around campus and it seems that everyone is entering into a dating relationship. I think I try to take this into my own hands because I feel that I must get the best for myself because God may not give it to me. I think that is why I surrender this issue and then pick it back up. It all comes back to trust. I found this quote that I really just want to share. As you can tell I am all about quotes:)

"Ladies, God gives you the choice between his plans and yours. In the midst of her circumstances Ruth could not have possibly seen that a man like Boaz would one day be her prince. Neither can you with your limited perspective so who or where your prince will be. Only God has all things in view. Are you trying to control your own life? Are you making plans for your life that only God should make? Don't settle for less than God's best. Surrender the terrible burdon of always needing life on your terms. Don't look back one day and regret that you made your life mate choice from a limited perspective because you longed for the security of a relationship. God can and will give you his best if you wait for it."

Wow! It has been a month since I have updated. So much has happened since that time. The school year is coming to a close. I can't believe that in a couple of months I will be 21 and a junior in college. Time seems to just fly by. Two more years and I will be out on my own. To be quite honest that scares me to death, but I know that God is in control. This past weekend I went and watched Fiddler on the Roof which was presented by the drama team here at Indiana Wesleyan. It was a great play. They did an awesome job. Yesterday I was able to play tennis for the first time this spring. It was so nice to get back out on the courts. It was so great to see so many people outside yesterday. Spring has finally arrived and that makes me excited. You can just smell it in the air. I love it:) The campus comes alive this time of year. I have been trying to get back in shape and I have been running about 2 miles everyday. I would really like to be running about three by the time school gets out. I don't know if I will make it or not. I am training for a 5-k that will be in my hometown in April. We will see how that all works out. God has been really working in my life. As I walk around campus it seems that there are couples everywhere. It has been really hard for me and so many times I find myself so discontent at where I am at and God just gently tapes me on the shoulder and tells me that he is enough and that i need to love him with all of my heart, soul, mind and strength. He needs to be the love of my life. I am not ready to date until I am content not dating. Along with just realizing how much I need to focus on Christ as the love of my life, I have this desire to be a woman of grace and humility. My prayer the past month has been

"may I be a woman who wears the crown of beauty. One who is not haughty. May I not be pretentious. I desire to be thankful and lovely and peaceful. Being pursued and embraced by God while going through the fire. May I walk with my head held high yet my heart bowed low in reverence. May I speak with the wisdom of one who has participated in the mercy of God, instead of the rambling words that come from those who have only read about him. God may I ache for the lost and rejoice with the found. Cry with the sinners and celebrate with the forgiven. I don't want to walk in perfection but in confidence. May I stand in the dark until you God come to my rescue. I desire to jump form the platform of my dreams into your strong arms underneath. May I come to know more and more of the depths of your great love. God may I truly know my weaknesses so that I am not appalled by the weaknesses of others. I want to be the woman I begin to think and feel and give like the King of Heaven. May I be an oak of righteousness, a radient display of your splendor. "