A friend of mine wrote this but I think it describes perfectly how I am feeling.

"For months I have been carrying around a deep longing in my heart. But everytime I examine it, I walk away unable to put into words. The ach fills me and I constantly feel it, but I cannot define it.
I ache for something that cannot be put into words. I ache for the touch of my creator. I ache for someone who is beyond words. My spirit cries for his spirit as deep calls out to deep. I cannot define my longing, it is not quantifiable or measurable and only the infinite and immeasurable can understand it and fill it."